Post by hypeforlife91 on Jun 2, 2011 19:46:36 GMT -5
So today I put my hands behind the wheel for the first time ever, besides the one-time drive of Go-Carts. I was extremely nervous. The reason for this is because I was with my boyfriend and I know how much he loves his car. I was left constantly thinking "what if this happened..." or "what if that happened" before I was even in the driver's seat.
Most of the time I can bring myself to succeed at something when I do it alone and will not put a burden on anyone else. I keep telling myself that no one else is going to help me do it but myself. That is how I know how to do all the other things that I know.
When someone else teaches me how to do something, I just feel that they have to truly encourage me that "I can do it" rather than "you will never be able to do it". In my head, I of course, feel awful especially this coming from someone I love, but on the other hand, I feel like I must find a way to show them that they were wrong and that I can do it.
So considering that I do in fact lack hand dexterity since I really haven't had the chance to do ANYTHING extra curricular or other than studying as a kid (piano is considered to be a "talent") I didn't do so great the first time driving. I knew those curbs were there, but for some reason I could not bring myself to avoid it. Believe it or not, I just learned how to swim recently and I'm still working on it. My parents never let me do anything nor took me anywhere, I'm serious. I felt so behind from all the other kids around me. Even though I may have been the smartest kid in the school, I was also the most boring and least experienced. It's funny how my parents yell at me and punish me all the time for being so stupid and how I lack common sense....go figure.
Bottom line is...I do eventually learn how to do things, just not the first time...I will probably be even worse than other people. But not everyone understands that. =(
Most of the time I can bring myself to succeed at something when I do it alone and will not put a burden on anyone else. I keep telling myself that no one else is going to help me do it but myself. That is how I know how to do all the other things that I know.
When someone else teaches me how to do something, I just feel that they have to truly encourage me that "I can do it" rather than "you will never be able to do it". In my head, I of course, feel awful especially this coming from someone I love, but on the other hand, I feel like I must find a way to show them that they were wrong and that I can do it.
So considering that I do in fact lack hand dexterity since I really haven't had the chance to do ANYTHING extra curricular or other than studying as a kid (piano is considered to be a "talent") I didn't do so great the first time driving. I knew those curbs were there, but for some reason I could not bring myself to avoid it. Believe it or not, I just learned how to swim recently and I'm still working on it. My parents never let me do anything nor took me anywhere, I'm serious. I felt so behind from all the other kids around me. Even though I may have been the smartest kid in the school, I was also the most boring and least experienced. It's funny how my parents yell at me and punish me all the time for being so stupid and how I lack common sense....go figure.
Bottom line is...I do eventually learn how to do things, just not the first time...I will probably be even worse than other people. But not everyone understands that. =(
