Which side do you belong to the most?

[conorsoccr23]

when i was younger i thought i was asian until i realized asians dont accept me so who cares, i know chinese and the culture so u cant say im white washed but maby i jus puch my asian part of me deep deep down

[FreckleFoot]

I am not happy to belong to one group more than another. It was not a conscious decision made by myself as I was too young. My father moved to the UK and chose to assimilate into the culture as much as possible. I remember him trying to teach my brother and I some Cantonese and a little bit of Chinese history, but we were too young to be interested and he never tried again.

On moving to Canada I spent more time with my Chinese side of the family in areas where almost everyone you met on the street was Chinese. I felt I got a brief taste, but I still do not feel it is authentic as it is only a pocket of the culture within another western culture. I found I was more Chinese than I realised, but I still wonder how I would fit in (if at all) in China.

I do not believe I will feel I truly belong to both cultures until I have either lived in the country of my Asian parent, a similar country, or at least learnt some of the language, done some extensive travelling and exploring of the country, its culture and history. Unfortunately for me, the chances are growing slimmer and slimmer.