Post by mel on Aug 16, 2008 7:26:25 GMT -5
my EA-ness came from my great great grandparents from my dad's mother's side..I think I'm a 4th generation EA..My oma's father was german-chinese (his father german,his mother chinese) while my oma's mother was portuguese-banjarmasin (her mother portuguese,her father banjarmasin--banjarmasin being a tribe from indonesia)..Then my oma married my opa,whose father was dutch and mother was timor (indonesian),which resulted in my dad being so mixed..Then my dad met my mum who was full manadonese (an indo tribe that has traces of eurasian blood,mum said she possibly has dutch or spanish blood somewhere),which resulted in me being dutch-timor(indo)-german-chinese-portuguese-banjar(indo)-manadonese(indo)
anyway so yea i'm not a 1st generation EA but i still can't help but feel a strong sense of EA-ness..i mean,whenever someone says something bad about any one of the races that i'm part of,esp when they speak bad of the european side of me (dutch/german/portuguese ppl),i feel so offended,despite the fact that i'm a 4th generation EA..it sounds kinda stupid for me to feel,so to say,patriotic in a way..'cause i'm 4th generation EA..i don't know,i guess i'm confused with my identity,being mixed and such..even though i am around 60% indo,and have chinese,i feel like i connect more to my european side when actually my european blood is less than half of what i am..i'm just really confused and for that,i feel raceless..
well it feels good that someone opened this forum..good to know that i'm not alone
anyway so yea i'm not a 1st generation EA but i still can't help but feel a strong sense of EA-ness..i mean,whenever someone says something bad about any one of the races that i'm part of,esp when they speak bad of the european side of me (dutch/german/portuguese ppl),i feel so offended,despite the fact that i'm a 4th generation EA..it sounds kinda stupid for me to feel,so to say,patriotic in a way..'cause i'm 4th generation EA..i don't know,i guess i'm confused with my identity,being mixed and such..even though i am around 60% indo,and have chinese,i feel like i connect more to my european side when actually my european blood is less than half of what i am..i'm just really confused and for that,i feel raceless..
well it feels good that someone opened this forum..good to know that i'm not alone